What happens when you have a fear so great it stuns you ? When you hear the word fear whats your first thought ? Death, sickness, meaness etc… when i watch the evening news daily it appears to me peoples fears are coming true everyday.
Normally fears are something you cant fix or control cause if you could you would do it and then put that fear to rest.
So no matter how many times i think about fear and my worst fear my answer is always the same.
I fear that something will happen to my mom or dad. And i know for a fact one day i will have to face my worst fear. People cant live forever… Its a fact of life it will happen no matter if its old age, sickness, accident or anything that could take them away.
Its nature that parents are not supposed to out live their children but that doesn’t make it any easier. I knew at an early age my parents were extra special a different breed.
Your probably thinking everyone loves their mom and dad. Well yea normally if you had any sort of a good childhood you grow up loving your parents. But i honestly think me and mine have a stronger bond than normal daughter – parent relationships.
They have always kept our safety #1.
Always wanted us to succeed and did what they needed to do to get us there.
We can talk about anything there is not one thing that i couldnt tell either one of them.
I’m 30 years old and still want to be at my parents house when im sick. And i go over to take a shower relax or just watch movies.
They love my kids the same way they love me.
My parents have always been opened minded and always know everything is not black and white.
They know deep down excatly who i am 100% pure Laci.
Even when i was going through my ruff rebellious years they never gave up or made me feel un-loved. They wanted me to be happy, healthy and safe and took on all my battles to get me where i would be all those things.
I know if i didnt have my mom and dad me and my husband would pack up our family and move closer to the ocean. My husband is from costa rica so he is always open to leaving the country. But he even admits we would both get homesick.
So now you may be thinking this woman is crazy !!! She is way to attached to her parents maybe / maybe not but no fear should be compaired to another fear.
I have accepted this is my fear but still havent came up with a way to deal with the reality. All i can do is hope and pray that one day when i do meet this fear that it will not permanently affect my well being and i can contiue to enjoy life and be an amazing mom.
I will continue to charish everyday and every moment and try not to let the fear of the future ruin the happiness of my present.
What is your fear ??